Middle-Earth Fanfiction Awards

In The Darkness Of My Dreaming

Author: Cuthalion
Nominator: Cuthalion
2008 Award Category: Genres: Alternate Universe: Angst/Tragedy

Story Type: Story : Length: Medium Length
Rating: Mature -- Reason for Rating: Moments of intense angst, character death
Summary: The aged Lily Proudfoot has come to doubt the decision she made nearly sixty years ago. Was it wrong to let the Ringbearer leave? And would her life have been happier if she had made him stay? A sudden illness answers her questions in strange, haunting dreams, and the old midwife comes to understand the full meaning of the saying: "Be careful what you wish for..."


Reviewed by: SurgicalSteel -- Score: 6

This is a haunting and grim alternate universe for Cuthalion's wonderful tale 'Before I Go To Sleep.' The original tale tells a love story between Frodo Baggins and the young midwife of Hobbiton, Lily Proudfoot - and in the original tale, he leaves her behind and departs over the sea. This tale contains a series of vignettes which give a somewhat different ending to the original. What if Frodo had remained in Middle Earth and married Lily? Would they have had a happily ever after - or would things have fallen out in a not-so-happy manner? Angsty and dark dark dark, but gorgeously written, wonderfully told, and oddly bitter and satisfying simultaneously - like a good dark chocolate. I enjoyed this, and have re-read it several times.

Reviewed by: NeumeIndil -- Score: 4

Of all your Lily stories, I'm torn between this one and "Cinnamon and Chocolate" as my favorite. This is a sweet ending, fitting for the hobbit who spent her whole life a 'spinster' and an outcast because of her devotion to one she knew better than even his closest friends. Touching is too trite a word, and yet it's the best I can do. The lyrics, too, add to the tale, though the device is often used with less success, or worse, to distraction. Just marvelous.

Reviewed by: viv -- Score: 4

What a fascinating what-if! It's almost like watching It's a Wonderful Life, but with hobbits. Of course, the characters are charming, and the tone pleasingly poignant, the details earthy and hobbity. I enjoyed Rosie especially, as well as that underlying sense of female comaraderie that pervades this piece (and never once wallops a reader over the head). What a deft hand you have at writing.

Reviewed by: Larner -- Score: 3

I myself have wished Frodo had found a love within the Shire so he could know that fulfillment; but lacking that, having loved Lily Proudfoot would have been nice. A tragic thought as to what Lily herself might have come to had this scenario come to pass, although I believe Frodo would have felt it well worthwhile, knowing he took these memories with him.