Middle-Earth Fanfiction Awards

Before I Go To Sleep

Author: Cuthalion
Nominator: Ariel
2005 Award Category: Genres: Romance

Story Type: Story : Length: Novella
Rating: R -- Reason for Rating: This story is listed as NC-17 on the Open Scrolls site because Open Scrolls requires any story with a sex act described and occuring in the story to be listed as NC-17. However, it is, IMHO, R at best, and would be listed as such if judging just by the ratings as put forth by the Motion Picture Association's ratings (which I assume you folks follow).
Summary: A lovestory between the Ringbearer and a girl from Hobbiton. It's obviously AU and a tale about what might have been if Frodo had ever found a love of his own. What would happen when the danger of the ring is revealed and Frodo has to leave? Would she wait for his return? And how would she handle the fact to be left behind again - and this time forever?


Reviewed by: Ariel -- Score: 10

While many people seem to have issues with stories in which Frodo is portrayed as having had a romantic interest in his life, there is NO reasonable argument they could use against this gorgeous story. It is, quite literally, THE story of Frodo's love and a more credible and heartbreaking take on this situation, I can't even imagine. The OFC is a lady whose history and situation are cleverly researched and believeable, as is her relationship with Frodo. If you think this one is a Mary Sue, then you don't know what a Mary Sue is. Lily is a delightful and heartbreakingly credible addition to canon. Her relationship is so well thought out and so sizzling that you find your heart breaking for her! But in such a memorable and poignant way. I am very fond of fanfic romances, which probably makes me unique among Frodo fans, especially where they allow me the chance to live vicariously through a character. This one is so well crafted that she really could have simply been one that was overlooked by the original author. Lily is woven cleverly into the story while making no changes to the story nor any significant ones to the personalities suggested in it (or at least, no where near as significant as the changes most fanfic makes). The care the author puts into this story makes her OFC's inclusion seamless and delightful. I can't possibly recommend this story enough. It is the answer to what I have always dreamed of for Frodo and it is a bloody good read at that. Thank you Cuthalion!

Reviewed by: Rabidsamfan -- Score: 7

Cuthalion is one of the rare authors who can create an original character -- even a love interest! -- and make you as interested in following the story about that character as you are in the characters you came to the fanfic for. And she combines this with the ability to write scenes that sizzle off the screen. Lily, a midwife and healer, is a strong lady, and one whose love for Frodo gives her the understanding of when to hold on to him, and when to let him go. Powerful, and at times frightening, this story follows her from her youngest days and first glimpses of the Master of Bag End, through the horror of the times when the Shire was under Lotho's direction and Saruman's thumb, through the love and pain of Frodo's return and his next departure, and on to a lonely tower many years later. Go on... read...

Reviewed by: SilverMoonLady -- Score: 7

Though I've not yet finished this beautiful story, I have no trouble recommending it to those seeking a well told tale and an engaging romance! There is a lovely mixture of detail and light that draws the reader in and invites them to live through this history, and there have been many times that, with a child on each arm tugging for attention, I've continued reading just one more line, one more paragraph, before being able to put down that heavy sheaf of paper, only to return to it as soon as may be. Lily is an interesting hobbitess who, like many of us, has been faced with choices and situations that had no clearly defined right answer; yet she presses on, doing her best, as we all must, and her mistakes, as much as her triumphs, endear her to the reader. I simply cannot wait to read the rest!

Reviewed by: Lindelea -- Score: 2

I don't read much "R", but made an exception for this hauntingly written piece. Wonderful description, well-developed characters, uplifting and nightmarish by turns, and yet we know that Lily will come through.